"He Asked Me To Kill Him" Chapter 48 The Things Mothers Leave Behind
Seraphina spent the next four days hunting alone.
Not because Lucien stopped following her.
Because he respected the distance anyway.
Which somehow hurt worse.
Prague blurred into snow-covered rooftops, underground weapon markets, abandoned cathedrals, and Blackthorn dead drops while Seraphina chased Church supply routes through the city with the kind of relentless focus people usually reserved for avoiding emotional collapse.
It almost worked.
Almost.
During daylight hours she tracked sanctified silver shipments moving through eastern districts.
At night she intercepted Church couriers carrying coded correspondence between Aldric’s inner circle and remaining Blackthorn loyalists.
She slept rarely.
Ate inconsistently.
And absolutely refused to acknowledge the fact she kept noticing Lucien everywhere anyway.
Not physically.
Habitually.
Every bookstore with dim yellow lights made her think of him leaning over ancient journals with tired concentration.
Every snowfall reminded her of the monastery room where he stayed awake listening to her breathe.
Every quiet moment replayed the look on his face after she walked out of the hotel suite.
God.
That expression followed her everywhere now.
By the fifth night, exhaustion finally caught her inside an abandoned Blackthorn archive apartment hidden above an old clockmaker’s shop near Old Town Square.
The safehouse belonged to her mother once.
Seraphina realized that immediately after entering.
The details were unmistakable.
Neatly repaired bookshelves.
Pressed lavender inside old journals.
A half-finished chess game still sitting beside the fireplace exactly the way her mother always left them when interrupted by missions.
Dust covered everything now.
But not enough to erase her.
Seraphina stood motionless in the center of the apartment for several long seconds while memories settled quietly through the dark rooms around her.
She hadn’t been here since she was nineteen.
Before Blackthorn promotions.
Before Lucien.
Before the world split open beneath her feet.
The silence inside the apartment felt personal somehow.
Not empty.
Waiting.
Seraphina dropped her weapons beside the door before moving slowly through the familiar rooms.
The kitchen still smelled faintly like old tea leaves and candle smoke.
A winter coat remained hanging near the entrance hook.
One of her mother’s handwriting notes still sat tucked beside the sink:
Buy oranges.
Stop forgetting breakfast.
The sight hit unexpectedly hard.
Because the note looked so painfully normal.
Not like something belonging to a woman buried beneath years of Blackthorn mythology and hidden truths.
Seraphina sank slowly into the couch beside the cold fireplace afterward and pressed both hands against her face.
She missed her mother suddenly with enough force to feel physically winded by it.
Not Commander Helena Van Helsing.
Just—
her mother.
The woman who braided her hair before training sessions.
Who secretly hated Church hymns.
Who once got drunk during Christmas mass and called a cardinal “spiritually annoying.”
God.
Seraphina laughed weakly into her hands.
Then almost cried immediately afterward.
Exhaustion made emotions dangerous.
She stood before that happened and moved toward the old study instead.
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Distraction.
That was safer.
The study looked untouched.
Stacks of Blackthorn reports lined the shelves while maps covered one entire wall beneath faded red string markers and coded annotations.
Seraphina scanned the room automatically through hunter instincts.
Hidden compartments.
False shelving.
Emergency caches.
Her mother trained her too well.
The discovery happened accidentally.
One loose floorboard near the desk shifted beneath her boot slightly differently than the others.
Seraphina crouched immediately.
Pulse quickening.
The compartment beneath contained only one thing:
A journal wrapped carefully in black cloth.
Not Blackthorn issue.
Personal.
Her breath caught softly.
Because she recognized the handwriting before even opening it.
Helena Van Helsing.
Her mother’s private journal.
Seraphina sat slowly on the floor beside the desk afterward while snow drifted beyond the apartment windows outside.
Then carefully opened the first page.
The entry dates began fifteen years earlier.
Before Helena became High Commander.
Before the Church elevated Aldric into power.
The early pages contained ordinary things at first.
Field reports.
Complaints about Blackthorn politics.
Observations about Seraphina’s childhood training.
Sera broke Matthias’ nose during combat drills today.
I told her not to apologize unless she regretted it.
She didn’t.
A reluctant smile tugged briefly at Seraphina’s mouth.
That sounded accurate.
She kept reading.
Gradually the journal changed tone.
The entries became more fragmented.
More paranoid.
Certain names repeated constantly:
Aldric.
Sanctification Division.
Immortality research.
Lucien Valerius.
Seraphina straightened slowly.
No.
Her eyes scanned faster afterward.
Page after page described Helena uncovering hidden Church operations buried beneath official Blackthorn command.
Illegal laboratories.
Disappearing hunter recruits.
Secret relic programs.
And then—
one sentence stopped her completely.
Lucien was telling the truth.
The apartment fell silent around her.
Seraphina stared at the line.
Read it again.
Again.
Her pulse turned uneven.
No.
No no no.
She turned pages faster now.
More entries followed.
Aldric fears coexistence because peace destroys Church authority.
The relics are made from living subjects.
We are not hunting monsters anymore.
We are manufacturing them.
Seraphina’s hands started shaking slightly.
Because her mother knew.
Years ago.
Long before Seraphina met Lucien.
Long before the sanctuary attack.
Helena already discovered everything.
A folded letter slipped loose from the journal pages suddenly and landed in Seraphina’s lap.
Different paper.
Different handwriting.
Lucien’s.
Seraphina froze instantly.
The letter looked old enough the edges had started yellowing with time.
Her breath caught softly before unfolding it.
The handwriting remained elegant even rushed:
Helena,
If Seraphina ever learns the truth, don’t let Blackthorn decide what she becomes afterward.
Fear makes institutions cruel.
I know you still remember that.
The signature beneath it read simply:
—L
Seraphina stared at the page numbly.
Lucien knew her mother.
Not distantly.
Personally.
Another memory surfaced suddenly:
Lucien always speaking about Helena carefully.
Never with hatred.
Never fully explaining why.
God.
She kept reading.
The final journal entries became frantic near the end.
Aldric suspects me.
They’re watching the apartment now.
If anything happens to me, Sera must never trust the Church archives.
Then finally—
the last completed entry.
Short.
Uneven handwriting.
Almost rushed.
Lucien tried to warn me Aurelia made the same mistake.
I thought I had more time.
Seraphina stopped breathing for one horrible second.
Aurelia.
Her mother knew about Aurelia too.
Knew the truth about Lucien.
Knew history was repeating.
And she hid it anyway trying to protect Seraphina from becoming part of it.
The realization hit harder than any physical wound yet.
Because suddenly everything changed again.
Her mother wasn’t ignorant.
Wasn’t loyal to Aldric.
Wasn’t blindly devoted to the Church.
She knew.
She knew the truth and died carrying it alone.
Snow drifted softly against the apartment windows while Prague bells echoed faintly through distant midnight streets below.
And sitting alone on the study floor surrounded by old journals and hidden grief—
Seraphina realized the woman she’d spent years mourning had been trying desperately to save her from this war all along.
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