"He Asked Me To Kill Him" Chapter 18 What Eternity Costs
The fire burned low sometime after midnight.
Not enough to warm the cabin properly anymore.
Just enough to keep the dark from feeling completely empty.
Outside, snowstorm winds moved heavily through the forest, rattling old window frames and burying the world beyond the cabin walls in white silence.
Seraphina woke slowly to the sound of wood cracking softly in the fireplace.
For several seconds she stayed still, disoriented by warmth, exhaustion, and the unfamiliar weight beneath her forehead.
Then awareness returned all at once.
Lucien.
Her eyes opened immediately.
She was leaning against him.
Not accidentally brushing shoulders anymore.
Actually leaning against him.
One of the blankets had slipped half off during the night, leaving her curled slightly toward his side while Lucien sat motionless beside the fire as though he hadn’t moved in hours.
Which, honestly, he probably hadn’t.
Embarrassment arrived fast.
Not because of the closeness.
Because he was clearly awake.
“You could’ve moved,” she muttered quietly.
Lucien’s gaze remained fixed on the dying fire ahead.
“You looked comfortable.”
“That sounds manipulative.”
“You say that about everything.”
Fair.
Unfortunately.
Seraphina pushed herself upright carefully, wincing as the bite wound in her shoulder protested beneath the oversized flannel shirt.
Lucien noticed immediately.
His attention flicked toward her injury before settling back on her face.
“The fever broke.”
“You checked?”
“Yes.”
“That feels invasive.”
“You were hallucinating.”
Her brow furrowed slightly. “I was?”
“You spent twenty minutes arguing with an invisible priest about soup.”
Seraphina closed her eyes briefly.
“Oh God.”
“To be fair,” Lucien added calmly, “you made several excellent points.”
Despite herself, she laughed softly under her breath.
The sound lingered strangely in the quiet cabin afterward.
Lucien glanced toward her then.
Not sharply.
Just long enough that she became suddenly aware again of how close they still sat beneath the blankets.
Too close.
Close enough to feel the cold radiating faintly from him even through layered wool and firelight.
And somehow—
she didn’t move away.
That realization felt dangerous enough to keep her quiet for a while.
Outside, wind dragged snow across the cabin roof in long soft waves.
Lucien reached forward eventually to adjust one of the burning logs with absent care.
“You should eat something when the storm settles.”
“You sound annoyingly domestic.”
“I spent eighty years pretending to be a physician.”
Seraphina looked toward him properly after that.
“You were a doctor?”
“Something similar.”
The answer came softer now.
Less guarded than usual.
Maybe exhaustion affected immortals too.
Or maybe isolation inside a freezing cabin at three in the morning simply made people honest.
“What happened?”
Lucien stared into the fire for several seconds before answering.
“The plague happened.”
The room settled quieter afterward.
Seraphina pulled the blanket tighter around herself.
“You stayed.”
“Yes.”
“Most people ran.”
A faint expression crossed his face.
Not pride.
Memory.
“I was young enough to believe saving people mattered more than surviving.”
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Something in the way he said it made her chest tighten unexpectedly.
Not dramatic sadness.
Worse.
Recognition.
Because she understood that version of him too easily.
Lucien leaned back slightly against the cabin wall, one arm resting loosely across his knee while firelight flickered gold against pale skin and dark hair.
“I thought medicine could fix anything if you worked hard enough,” he continued quietly. “Disease. Poverty. War.”
“And?”
His mouth curved faintly.
Tired.
“Turns out humanity is much more committed to self-destruction than I anticipated.”
Seraphina watched him carefully.
There was no performance in the confession.
No seductive mystery.
Just exhaustion old enough to become part of someone’s bones.
“You still try helping people,” she said eventually.
Lucien glanced toward her.
“That sounds dangerously optimistic.”
“You saved me.”
“You were useful.”
“You jumped into a frozen lake after me.”
Silence.
Lucien looked back toward the fire.
The movement itself felt like an answer.
Seraphina noticed the scar near his throat again in the shifting firelight.
Thin.
Silver.
Old.
She hadn’t asked about it yet.
Mostly because some instincts still warned her there were stories attached to him capable of ruining her permanently.
Unfortunately curiosity appeared stronger than self-preservation lately.
“Who turned you?”
Lucien went still.
Not dramatic.
Just enough.
The fire cracked softly between them.
Outside, snow continued falling hard enough to erase the world.
Finally he answered.
“A priest.”
Seraphina blinked.
“What?”
A humorless laugh escaped him quietly.
“Yes,” he said. “That was roughly my reaction too.”
Everything inside her paused briefly after that.
Because no one ever talked about the origins of vampires inside the Order. They taught tactics. Hunting patterns. Weaknesses.
Never beginnings.
“Why?”
Lucien’s gaze lowered toward his hands resting loosely against his knee.
“I was dying.”
The simplicity of the answer hurt more than details would have.
He continued after a moment.
“The plague took half the city. I got careless treating infected patients.”
His voice remained calm.
Too calm.
Like the story had calcified long ago.
“The priest promised immortality would allow me to keep helping people.”
“And did it?”
Lucien smiled faintly at the fire.
Not happily.
“Depends how flexible your definition of helping becomes after six centuries.”
Seraphina didn’t know what to say to that.
Which almost never happened to her.
The silence stretched comfortably afterward.
Not empty.
Just tired.
At some point Lucien reached toward the nearby table and handed her a metal cup of heated water he’d apparently prepared while she slept.
“You made tea?” she asked suspiciously.
“It’s mostly hot water.”
“That’s not tea.”
“It’s emotional support water.”
She stared at him for a second.
Then laughed again.
Softer this time.
God.
The sound affected him.
She could see it.
Not attraction.
Not only attraction.
Relief.
Like hearing her laugh temporarily quieted something painful inside him.
The realization sat heavily between them afterward.
Seraphina took a slow drink from the cup while watching snow drift beyond the cracked cabin windows.
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“Do you hate being immortal?”
The question slipped out quietly enough that she almost regretted asking it.
Lucien didn’t answer immediately.
Instead, he watched the fire collapse inward around blackened wood and fading sparks.
When he finally spoke, his voice sounded distant.
“Some nights it feels like drowning very slowly while everyone you love learns how to die.”
The honesty hit harder than anything else he’d said tonight.
Because there was no poetry in it.
No performance.
Just truth stripped clean enough to hurt.
Seraphina looked down at the steam rising from the metal cup in her hands.
“You make it sound lonely.”
Lucien’s expression softened slightly.
“It is lonely.”
The fire crackled lower.
Outside, the storm softened gradually into quieter snowfall while the forest disappeared beneath layers of white and darkness.
Seraphina’s exhaustion returned heavily after that.
The kind that settled behind her eyes and slowed thoughts into warmth and static.
She tried fighting it for a few more minutes.
Failed.
Lucien noticed immediately, of course.
“You should sleep.”
“You’re very bossy for someone technically undead.”
“You’re very stubborn for someone recovering from hypothermia.”
She shifted slightly beneath the blankets, meaning to lean back against the wall.
Instead, exhaustion dragged her sideways before she corrected the movement properly.
Her shoulder brushed lightly against Lucien’s chest.
Then stayed there.
For one brief embarrassing second, Seraphina considered moving.
But the fire was warm.
The storm outside sounded distant now.
And Lucien remained impossibly still beside her, like someone afraid sudden movement might break something fragile.
Too tired to argue with herself anymore, she let her eyes close.
The last thing she felt before sleep finally pulled her under was Lucien adjusting the blanket more carefully around her shoulders.
And the last thing Lucien did afterward—
long after her breathing evened out beside him—
was sit awake beside the dying fire, listening to it with the kind of attention other people reserved for prayers they no longer believed would be answered.
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