"He Asked Me To Kill Him" Chapter 15 Before The Monster
Lucien did not return to the Night Court after leaving House Vespertilio.
Cassian sent three messages.
Morvena sent two.
One lesser noble apparently attempted to send flowers, which remained deeply embarrassing for everyone involved.
Lucien ignored all of it.
Instead, he stood alone inside an abandoned chapel near the river while rain tapped softly against the ruined roof overhead.
The chapel had burned sometime during the nineteenth century and never fully recovered afterward. Half the stained glass remained shattered, allowing Prague’s pale dawn light to spill across cracked stone floors and long-dead prayer benches.
Lucien liked the place because nobody came here anymore.
People eventually abandoned sacred spaces once enough tragedy accumulated inside them.
He understood that instinct.
A rusted lantern glowed faintly near the altar beside several old medical texts spread across a wooden table. Most were written in Latin. One in Arabic. Another in Greek old enough that the leather cracked if handled carelessly.
Lucien sat in silence for a long time without reading any of them.
His attention kept drifting elsewhere.
Rainwater slid slowly down the chapel windows.
Somewhere beyond the city streets, cathedral bells rang for morning prayer.
And despite every attempt at discipline—
he kept thinking about Seraphina standing beneath the ballroom chandeliers with silver hidden against her thigh and fury burning behind her eyes.
You should hate me.
The memory lingered unpleasantly.
Not because she said it.
Because part of him already knew she was right.
Lucien closed the medical text in front of him and leaned back slightly in the wooden chair.
Exhaustion settled differently when you stopped being human.
Not physical fatigue.
Accumulation.
Too many memories pressing against each other at once until the past stopped feeling chronological.
Sometimes all it took was a voice.
A pair of eyes.
A woman standing too close in the rain.
And suddenly centuries collapsed inward.
He hated when that happened.
The chapel door creaked softly behind him.
Cassian entered carrying two paper coffee cups and the expression of someone deeply prepared to become annoying before breakfast.
“I found you,” he announced.
Lucien didn’t look up.
“A tragedy.”
“You vanished after the ballroom.”
“You survived somehow.”
Cassian handed him one of the coffees anyway before settling onto the edge of a nearby prayer bench.
For several moments neither spoke.
Cassian studied him openly over the rim of his cup.
Then:
“You almost kissed her.”
Lucien stared at the coffee in complete silence.
Cassian nodded slowly.
“Ah. So we’re pretending not to hear things now.”
“It didn’t happen.”
“That’s a very technical definition of failure.”
Rain tapped steadily overhead.
Lucien took one slow drink before finally speaking.
“She pointed a gun at my throat.”
Cassian considered that.
“You looked happy about it.”
“That says more about your judgment than mine.”
“No,” Cassian replied lightly. “I think it says something about yours.”
Lucien ignored him.
Mostly because he disliked how accurate the observation felt.
ADVERTISEMENT
Cassian leaned back against the pew afterward, stretching his legs out across old stone flooring.
“You know what the problem is?”
“I assume you’re about to tell me regardless.”
“You keep looking at her like someone returned something you buried centuries ago.”
The words landed harder than expected.
Lucien’s jaw tightened slightly around the coffee cup.
Cassian noticed immediately.
Of course he did.
They’d known each other too long for subtlety to survive.
“She isn’t Evelyne,” Cassian said more quietly this time.
“I know.”
“Then why do you keep staring at her like you forgot how breathing works?”
Lucien looked toward the ruined stained-glass windows overhead.
Morning light filtered through fractured colors across the chapel walls.
Beautiful things always looked slightly tragic broken apart.
“I don’t know,” he admitted finally.
That answer surprised both of them.
Cassian sat up straighter.
“Well,” he murmured. “That’s terrifying.”
Lucien almost smiled despite himself.
Almost.
Then his attention drifted toward the old medical journals spread across the table beside him.
Cassian followed the movement.
“You’ve been rereading those again.”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
Lucien ran one finger absently across the edge of a worn page before answering.
“Because Prague feels familiar.”
And that was the problem.
Not the monsters.
Not the Church.
Recognition.
The infected creatures beneath the city moved too much like old failures he thought history had already buried.
Cassian watched him quietly now.
Less joking.
More careful.
“You really think they reopened the gate?”
Lucien remained silent for several seconds.
Then:
“I think someone’s trying.”
The chapel fell quiet again afterward except for rain and distant city bells.
Lucien stared down at the faded medical diagrams spread across the table.
Drawings of diseased lungs.
Blood infections.
Anatomical sketches.
Human suffering translated neatly into ink.
He used to make drawings like those himself once.
Before the turning.
Before immortality.
Before blood became hunger instead of medicine.
The memory arrived suddenly enough to hurt.
—
France
1347
The village smelled constantly of smoke and sickness.
Lucien crossed the crowded infirmary carrying fresh water while exhausted patients coughed themselves bloody into linen sheets nearby. The plague had already swallowed three neighboring towns by then.
Most physicians fled weeks ago.
Lucien stayed.
Not because he was brave.
Because leaving felt worse.
“You haven’t slept.”
The voice came from beside the doorway.
Lucien looked up to find Evelyne standing near the herb tables with dried lavender bundled loosely in one hand. Candlelight softened the sharp lines of her traveling coat while rainwater still clung faintly to dark hair escaping her braid.
Not armor.
Never armor with her.
Even back then she moved like someone who preferred healing over violence whenever possible.
Lucien remembered noticing that first.
And then noticing everything else afterward.
“I slept yesterday,” he replied.
“You passed out against medical records for two hours.”
“Still counts.”
Evelyne rolled her eyes before crossing the infirmary toward him.
God.
That expression.
Seraphina did that exact same thing when irritated.
The realization twisted unexpectedly through his chest even now, centuries later.
In the memory, Evelyne reached toward his sleeve and frowned slightly at the blood staining the fabric.
“You’re hurt.”
“It’s not mine.”
“That wasn’t my question.”
Lucien remembered laughing softly under his breath at that.
Not because it was funny.
Because she sounded annoyed enough to care.
Outside, church bells rang somewhere through the storm while plague victims whispered fever prayers in nearby rooms.
Evelyne handed him a small cloth bundle tied carefully with string.
“What’s this?”
“Food.”
Lucien looked genuinely confused.
“I ate this morning.”
“You drank wine and called it soup.”
“That is soup in several regions.”
“That’s deeply concerning.”
Again—
that exact same expression afterward.
That look halfway between frustration and reluctant affection.
Lucien closed his eyes briefly inside the ruined chapel as the memory faded.
Too clear.
Still too clear after all these years.
Cassian watched him carefully from across the pews.
“You’re doing it again,” he said quietly.
Lucien opened his eyes.
“Doing what?”
“Looking haunted.”
A faint smile touched Lucien’s mouth briefly.
“Occupational hazard.”
Cassian hesitated.
Then more carefully:
“She really resembles her that much?”
Lucien stared at the rain beyond the shattered chapel windows.
Not identical.
Never identical.
Seraphina carried sharper edges. More restraint. More loneliness.
But sometimes—
in certain lighting—
when irritation softened briefly into concern—
when she forgot to hide exhaustion behind discipline—
the resemblance became unbearable.
“Yes,” Lucien said softly.
The chapel settled into silence afterward.
Somewhere far across Prague, cathedral bells continued ringing through rain-soaked streets while morning slowly swallowed the city whole.
And despite six centuries of practice—
Lucien still couldn’t decide whether meeting Seraphina felt more like punishment or mercy.
ADVERTISEMENT
You May Also Like
-
CompletedChapter 8
The Divorce Papers Were His. The Prenup Was Mine.
Glow-Up10.1k words5 57 -
CompletedChapter 7
The Wife He Tried to Erase
Glow-Up8.9k words5 11 -
CompletedChapter 14
Forgotten vows under the snow
Five years ago, Clara and Ethan were the golden couple, their future written in the stars—until a scandalous leak destroyed everything. To protect her family, Clara made the ultimate sacrifice, playing the villain to push Ethan away, while hiding a truth that would haunt them both. Now, fate brings them back together in the sterile silence of a hospital corridor. Ethan is a cold, brilliant surgeon; Clara is a desperate sister fighting to save her family from a tragic cycle. As old secrets surface and long-buried emotions threaten to break the surface, can a love broken by lies and secrets ever find its way back to the light?Glow-Up|Second Chance19.3k words5 16 -
CompletedChapter 14
The Unspoken Vow
Five years ago, on the eve of our wedding, I was shattered. I was forced away, labeled a traitor, and vanished into a life of silence. Now, standing in a clinic as a doctor, I look up to see the man I once promised to marry—standing there with his new fiancée, ready for their pre-wedding checkup. He doesn't recognize me, yet every glance he gives feels like a blade against my skin. I thought I had buried the past, but Liam is back, and he is determined to unearth the truth I’ve kept locked away. Can we ever rebuild what was broken by secrets, or are we just two strangers tethered by a tragic past?Glow-Up|Second Chance19.4k words5 14 -
CompletedChapter 16
When the flowers wither
For three years, Ginger lived in the shadows as Luke’s secret girlfriend, ghostwriting love letters for him to send to other women, including the radiant Luna. After a heartbreaking breakup where Luke chose his pride over their relationship, Ginger decides to walk away for good. Just as she starts her new life in Shanghai and finds potential happiness with the gentle Sean, Luke suddenly reappears, desperately trying to rewrite a past he once treated as disposable. But in the game of love, Ginger has finally learned the most important rule: once you've given up, there's no turning back.Glow-Up|Second Chance21.4k words5 20 -
CompletedChapter 14
The Mortician’s Silent Goodbye
For three years, Clara has lived in a marriage defined by rigid, suffocating rules. As a mortician, she is constantly surrounded by death, but her husband, Julian, a celebrated heart surgeon, treats her presence like a source of contamination. He forces her to disinfect herself repeatedly until she is invisible in her own home. When she discovers Julian’s double standards—welcoming his colleague, Stephanie, into his personal space without a hint of the fastidiousness he forces upon his wife—Clara finally realizes that her only sin in his eyes is simply existing. It is time for her to walk away from the cold, sterile cage and start a new life, three thousand miles away, where she can finally breathe under clear skies.Glow-Up|Fake Relationship18.5k words5 14 -
CompletedChapter 13
My Ex's Secret Life
For two years, Aiden lived in the shadows of Vanessa, his secret girlfriend and a rising star. He gave her everything—his time, his devotion, and his resources—only to be mocked by her as a "clingy fan." But when Vanessa trades her integrity for a sponsorship deal with The Su Corporation, she doesn’t realize she’s stepping into a trap laid by the very man she discarded. Now, Aiden is stepping out of the shadows. As the son of the powerful Su family, he is ready to pull the curtain on her fake life. Vanessa thinks the game is over; Aiden is just getting started.Human Nature|Glow-Up|Second Chance17.4k words5 11 -
CompletedChapter 13
The Unwelcome Guest
Chloe thought she was just going away for a month of training, leaving her inheritance—a charming house her mother left her—safe and sound. But she returns to find her house occupied by her neighbors, the Hendersons, who have turned her sanctuary into their personal party space, with her fiancé Liam standing by, insisting she just "be reasonable." From stolen jewelry to forged lease agreements, Chloe realizes her fiancé hasn't just opened the door to her home; he's plotted to trade her life and legacy for his own gain. It’s time to stop playing the "nice girl" and start playing to win.Human Nature|Glow-Up17.8k words5 9 -
CompletedChapter 13
The Unheard Goodbye
For seven years, Clara lived in a world of silence, protected by the tender care of her husband, Marcus. Or so she thought. Every gesture, every sign, and every vow he made to her felt like a fairy tale—until the day her hearing finally returned. The reality that shattered her world was not one of love, but a calculated performance designed to satisfy his true obsession: another woman. As the truth about the "sacrificial marriage" and the cruel secret behind her infertility surfaces, Clara realizes that her seven-year love was nothing but a fragile bubble. It is time for her to stop being the pawn in his game. Leaving behind everything, Clara walks away from the life she once cherished, ready to silence the man who once taught her how to listen.Glow-Up|Marriage of Convenience18.5k words5 8 -
CompletedChapter 10
The Billionaire’s Regret
Sienna once loved Julian with her entire heart, sacrificing everything for a ten-year devotion that ultimately shattered against the cruelty of his betrayal and the life-altering trauma of a landslide. On the day she was buried under the ruins, Julian chose to save his "true love" first, leaving Sienna to lose their unborn child and her own future as a mother in the cold mud.Glow-Up14k words5 8